10:53 a.m. - 2006-10-04
Still Pregnant
Nothing much new to report. We did think for a short time on Saturday night that there might be a baby in our immediate future, but we were wrong. Amy and Ryan had come over, and in between take-out Chinese and few fierce games of Catchphrase, I started up with some bizarre pains and maybe contractions, too. I put on quite a show, with even some tears for dramatic effect. Each time an episode would subside, Joe would look at me and ask, "Are you done now?" But it all passed for good by about midnight, and though I was mostly relieved, a small part of me was disappointed.
Call me crazy, but I STILL can't believe this is actually happening to me. I'm 38 weeks tomorrow -- 2 weeks from my due date -- and the idea that, sometime this month, a living human infant will make its way outside of me continues to baffle me. I know it happens to other people all the time, but those are OTHER PEOPLE. It just all still seems like a fun game -- bigger clothes to wear, doctor's visits every week, people fussing over me and cooing over my gigantic belly. The part about the whole birth thing is not entirely lost on me -- I fully understand what's supposed to happen. It's just that I guess in the back of my mind, I don't really think it's going to happen to me. Maybe it will happen to Joe instead.
